so let's dance...

yes i dance. its a passion. i love choreographing. learning new styles. ive trained in hip hop, jazz and lyrical, but i can also do a little of ballet and modern. ive choreographed a couple of pieces here and there but nothing recent. i have two upcoming parties i can chroeograph to, so stay tuned and maybe ill post it when its done.

heres a video of my first ever choreography. its the first time i took my own choreo on stage. hope you guys like it.

background: its inspired by britney spears and gwen stefani songs. i titled it breathe heavy. one, because i got most of the songs off breatheheavy.com and two, yeah you breathe heavy after dancing. so here goes...

live love rock!

i just finished editing my ollie's myspace. go check it out. it's cool. its art. "live it. love it. rock it." he's sitting on the bed, on his laptop, shirtless, wearing my boxers, and as i look at him, i know he's the one. you know that feeling you get when you know something is right. your heart skips, your knees weakens, you're speechless. yeah thats how i feel right now. all i want to do is go over there and hug him *pause* ok im back. yeah he's defintely the one.

so you're wondering when JBX was first established... let me tell you our story.

we met at a club, yes a club. it was in Rage. he's a friend of a friend of a friend of a friend of mine. the first time i saw him, i thought his hair was awesome. im into hair and he's got one of the best hair ive ever seen. so that was a plus. our first eye contact was across the dance floor. he just got out of the bathroom and i was standing against the wall. and boom, we made eye contact. since then, we were eyeing each other throughout the whole night. we were always trying to make sure that we were dancing where the other one can see. you know you do that too. haha! our first interaction was in the parking lot. he told me he likes my socks. and i offered my hand for a handshake and said 'hi! im jaybe" and with that one handshake was the birth of our love.

it was simple, it was cute, it was love at first sight.. of hair. two and a half years later, we're still together. and two and a half years, especially in the queer world, is pretty long. we make it work, there were times when it was hard but we pull through because we put our differences aside and understand each other. we respect each other and we both know each other's strengths and weaknesses. he never ever try to change me. i love him simply because he loves me for who i am.


i love this picture. its our wedding picture. ha!

he was trying to sleep, but i wouldn't let him so i showered him with kissed! i think he liked it though!


i know its hard to find love. real love. i know some people who jump into relationships just because they like the attention. it makes them happy knowing the fact that someone is enfatuated with them. but is it real? why would someone jump into something temporary. it takes time.

time? this upcoming week is really busy for me. i have work from monday to friday. my sister's high school grad is on wednesday. i have disneyland from thursday to saturday. and at the same time, i have to spend as much time as i possibly can with my ollie. he's leaving to the pinas in appx. a week and a half. i'm truly going to miss him. we've been unseperable (literally) for quite some time, and i remember when he went on a cruise for a week and we weren't able to speak with each other, i cried almost every night. empty bed, no morning kiss, no night cuddles. it'll be hard, but im glad hes visiting the pinas. he's never been there and im glad he gets to experience his culture. but still! ill be home missing him, wishing he's here for me to hold him at night. i'll miss the way he looks at me and smiles for no reason. our little disagreements with food. the way he holds my pinky finger or the way we brush our feet together when we sleep. man, i need to stop thinking about it. he'll come back after three weeks and then we'll catch up on the days we missed.

disneyland rocks. it hurts my feet like a bitch, but i love it. it makes me happy seeing those little kids smiling and waving and going "ratatouille!!!" yesterday, my headband came off so i was hella sweating. and it kept dripping on my eye so it looked like i was winking at everybody. haha. and it stings. im getting used to dancing down main street. it seems pretty long but i know ill get use to it.

anyways, thats my weekend. and ill update with more pictures later. have a good night and 'till next time.

MIDNIGHT FUN

Let me start by telling you what happened to me last night. I had Disneyland at 4am this morning, so I forced myself to sleep really early last night, BUT I couldn’t. I slept around 11:30 but I kept waking up every half an hour. Around 12:30am, I woke up and felt my dick wet… to my surprise, my boyfriend had his mouth around my dick. I didn’t even know I was hard. I enjoyed his warm wet mouth around my dick and to make it better, he does this technique that I love. While my dick is in his mouth, he wraps his tongue around the bottom of my shaft and licks it, he does this repeatedly. I tried to hold myself from being loud, because everyone was already sleeping. I let him know I was enjoying it by grabbing his head and forcing him to suck my dick some more. I knew I was already having a hard time sleeping, but I didn’t mind him waking me up to have a little midnight fun.

So I woke up around 2:30 and got ready to go to Disneyland for rehearsal. We paraded down Main Street and I didn’t know it was that far. Dancing while marching is really hard. I need to learn how to pace myself so I don’t run out of breath by the time I get to Main Street. We rehearsed it for quite a while and it was really cold. We waited a lot for the execs to get there and watch us. Everyone kept saying to smile, but it’s hard to smile when your whole face is sweating and you’re running out of breath. Our opening night is this Friday, and guess what, I’m working that night. So if you are planning to go to Disneyland anytime soon, you’ll see me parade down on the Ratatouille pre-parade at night. Fun stuff, but very tiring.

PICTURE OF THE NIGHT
Me and my Ollie, home from APO installs








I guess that’s it for tonight, have a good night and ‘till next time!

quick update

I apologize to my readers.. .I haven’t updated for a while now. I’ve just been really busy with work. My days ahead are going to be really busy. I have work tomorrow from 8-1p then I head over to Disney from 2-6p. Sleep then head back to Disney at 4a-8a then head to work again from 9a-5p. Busy? But here’s a quick update…


I went to the beach this weekend. It was really fun. The water was a bit cold at Balboa beach but we got used to it. Here’s some pictures… enjoy!




on the way there. Proud to be flip!










I just recently took some night pics.. I’ll post them later so keep checking. ‘til then. Have a gnite.

random thoughts 1

Random thoughts…


Being the family’s black sheep kind of sucks. No matter how much you try to impress your family, it’s still not enough. No matter how much your other siblings are doing things worse than you, you still get all the comments and the flacks for it. Even when you have a job, then you go out, it’s like “why did you spend money?” or “You didn’t have to eat there!” at the same time your brother or sister went out and spent twice as much as you did that day and for them it’s “oh wow, what did you buy today, oh that’s nice!” Its sickening in away. Maybe it’s the fact that you’re gay, that’s why your family treats you differently. I mean, I could expect other people, whether it be someone you don’t know or a friend, treat you differently because you’re gay, but for your own blood to treat you differently ? How wrong is that? Your family should be there to love you and support you with any decisions you make. They shouldn’t be treating you any differently from your siblings just because you choose to date someone the same sex as you. And to add more things… you’re the one who keep the family together. The one who understands how everyone else is feeling, who’s willing to put your own feelings aside just to help those surrounding you. The one people turn to when they’re sad, who keeps everyone having fun. It sucks you know?! I think it’s just time to move out and let them experience how different and how harder it would be when you’re not there. Show them that you’re successful and at the end be the one they turn to for support, whether it be financial or emotional. To never give up and prove all of them wrong, to make them regret how they’ve treated you in the past, to make them go “oh, my bad!” One day…


This is to those who feel the same way… never give up, prove them wrong, show them what you can give, and more importantly, do it for yourself.

Today for you, tomorrow for me...

Today was pretty tiring. I went to work from 8 to 4. I was a little frustrated at some stores because some of them were lazy with their inventory. When I got home, me and my Ollie were going to fix our other car but we were way too tired to do anything. We ended up eating at Jollibee. Our usual chicken with spaghetti. That’s how our day was, we’re very excited for San Diego. We can’t wait to move and finally take another step in our relationship. I love him.



finally happy with his food!


Jollibee rocks!

[[night pictures]]








’till next time.. gnite!

my busy weekend...

I havent blogged this whole weekend. It's about time! Let me tell you about my weekend...



FRIDAY

I didn't go to work because I was off (yes!) I ended up going back home in Glendale to help my sister prep up for her prom. She asked me to do her hair, she wanted it un-promish. So pretending that I knew what I was doing, I made it punk with a rock twist. It turned out pretty nice. Her dress was made by one of her friend and it was heavy but it was really pretty. It's going to end up on her cotillion girls for her debut. She was the talk of her debut. Her friends were even talking about what she wore and her hair the next day. Nice! Then I headed to pick up my Ollie and he gets out of work at 4.30. I got there at 4.55. I was so late and he kind of got mad, I mean I would too if he was late. So i took him out for dinner. We went to Max's restaurant and ate some chicken and sinigang. We wanted to go watch Shrek the Third but we were too tired and just went home and called it a night.



SATURDAY

We got our eyebrows done! For some reason, this time hurt. The lady who does our eyebrows took forever. After, we ate at Thai Bbq. I didn't really want to eat that much so me and Ollie shared. Then we got ready to go to Valencia for my grandpa's 65th bday. The drive was better than I thought it was going to be. We got there a little late becuase we had to wait for my sister to get out of practice. We were about two hours late. Good thing it was a buffet so there was some food left. I caught up with my second cousins and we were laughin the whole entire night talking about when they first got their period (ha!) to debuts to how fat everyone else got. The party ended at about 10.30 so we drove back to Glendale and stopped by RoseBerry. Its like pink berry but it's Rose! I loved their chairs. I'm not a really big fan of yogurt so I just shared. After dropping off my sister and cousin, we drove home and got home around 12 then slept.



TODAY

Woke up around 10 and had brunch with our good friend Marni. We had brunch at Mimi's Cafe. I've only been there once and it was pretty dead, to our surprise, it was busy. We had to wait about 30 minutes for our table. maybe everyone was just coming out of church. We caught up with her and she has a lot of things going on with her life right now. I'm so happy for her! After brunch we went home and figured out what we wanted to do. We ended up celebrating our anniversary today because I have work the whole day on our real day (which is on Tuesday). We went to Chino Hills and ate at Johnny Carinos. The food was good that I couldn't share. After, we headed to Harkins Theatre and we were late for the Shrek showing so we bought tickets for Knocked Up. Im not a really big fan of "funny" movies so we waited for the other showing for Shrek. Shrek was okay. I think its just a waste of a movie. The story wasn't really good and I thought Justin's voice wasn't believe-able for his character. That's just my opinion. So now we're home and here I'm updating my blog.



Here's some pictures of this weekend...


my sister's hair.



before going out today


my food


Ollie's at Johnny Carinos


no, Ollie really liked his food.


you want some huh?


waiting for shrek




[[SHOE OF THE DAY]]
I actaully own a pair of these, so does my sister.


[[ NIGHT PICTURES]]
the NAUGHTY fun side of Jay.


Just a little peak, I'll upload more later.

Okay, time for sleep... til next time. Gnite